Contact Improvisation offers extraordinary opportunities to explore movement cooperation with others and oneself. I've been investigating a question about how to find in solo moving the kind of inspiration that can come from dancing with others. I had been exploring a practice for a long time before the COVID pandemic. Having to concentrate on solo moving during the pandemic has given me the opportunity to resolve some questions about how to describe the practice and its purpose, enough so that I feel ready to describe it.
The Basic Score
- After stretching a little I stand
- Time happens. I gradually notice more about what's happening in my body.
- Eventually I notice some small movements – shifts of weight, displacement from breathing, and needing to adjust my position; everything counts.
- Eventually I might notice very slow shifting – gradual tendencies in a direction.
- As time continues all these things become easier to notice, and I have the opportunity to indulge them a little – follow where my body is going as I might follow someone else's finger in a finger dance.
- It's challenging to not rush it, give time for very little to happen.
- It's following momentum, at first very gradual.
- The movements that arise feel like opportunities, and are easy. My experience has been that the process of paying attention leads to getting a feel for what works, for tuning in better and better.
- As I indulge the movements, follow them, I also let them go when they're done. I might then return to stillness or find another change that happens along the way, and follow it. The latter happens increasingly as I continue.
- Eventually it becomes easier to notice changes – to notice momentum, gradual or sudden – that I hadn't before. Like a pivot on my heel, or yielding into a step so I sink into a level change, or following a trajectory away from the ground, into a small jump. Varying opportunities continue to appear, with movements of my body relative to itself – arms, torso, head, fingers, everything – becoming part of the repertoire.
- Somewhere along during each practice my state changes. Noticing and following momentum (including stillness) becomes easier and more integrated. It's fun to explore, feeling the ebb and flow of activity, while always having the option to return to stillness. This sensitivity is much like the attunement and acuity I arrive at in doing CI with others.
- As I settle in I often get the feeling of gliding, in continuously shifting ways.
- If I'm warming up or moving solo at a jam, I may find myself eventually converging into partnering with someone else.
My description came together in realizing that I can look at "standing still" a little differently than usual. Instead of thinking of it as a stable state of static equilibrium, I came to realize that it's equally valid to consider standing still to be a constantly shifting balance between changing equilibria. That is, there are changes in our balance happening all the time, for many and diverse reasons.
Why don't we notice these changes more, in the first place?
- First, if they're really ever-present, they tend to fade into the background – they're the water in which we swim.
- Second, common approaches to mastering movement – learning to walk, run, write your name – tend to favor an attitude of control, one in which involuntary movements are considered contrary, to be avoided rather than explored.
- Further, contemporary preoccupation with external media, combined with the discomforts of sedentary life, tends to habituate us to disregarding physical presence altogether.
- Striving for an ideal of static stability we have reason to disregard small activity, even pretend like it's not happening. If it's actually useful to notice it – that's so for me – then it can take some time and rediscovery. This solo movement practice I'm pursuing is aimed at tuning in to balance as a dynamic thing, as Contact Improv involves tuning in to and sharing changing balance with a partner.
This approach is primarily informed by two elements of Contact Improvisation lore.
- People familiar with the Contact Improvisation history know about Steve Paxton's exploration of the small dance in the stand. (Steve originated and developed Contact Improvisation.) In it he suggests exploring the little movements you can notice if you take time in an easy stand to pay attention. What if those little motions are useful signs of a dynamic, shifting equilibrium in our body that becomes apparent if you take time to tune in?
- I connect Steve's exploration of the Small Dance to an exercise devised by Nancy Stark Smith called the Finger Dance. (Nancy is one of the original group who worked with Steve in developing CI, and in many ways continued to lead development and sharing of the practice through the rest of her life.) In the Finger Dance, partners touch finger tips and follow their partner's finger's movements. In it neither partner is supposed to deliberately lead the other partner's finger, but rather just follow it. As with what can happen on a Ouija board, nobody has to try to make something happen. Engaging in this way establishes a feedback loop that can amplify little movements into shared trajectories. It's not arbitrary – the little movements reflect what's happening in our overall situation, our balance.
I like what can happen in the finger dance, much as I enjoy full-body contact improvisation. Over time I've enthusiastically used it as an exercise, as part of introducing CI to others. Along the way I've found a crucial preliminary step: taking a moment to first try following the little movements in your own finger. When suggesting this, I mention not expecting the stillness to particularly change. It might, but that's not necessary. Instead, I suggest, this focus can help establish a way to be receptive. Doing that as a preliminary step seems to enhance the experience people have with the exercise. This practice that I've been exploring is about cultivating that focus in the stand and growing it into movement.
What Happens When I Practice
The process varies. To start, I usually just notice settling in and shedding of tension. I might notice small shifts as I settle into place, but they don't particularly go anywhere. I give myself time.
I've found it particularly helpful to be alert for shifts that are slow. A kind of very gradual momentum that has an almost inevitable sort of geologic feel.
Rotations are another useful thing to notice. Twists that allow me to settle slightly differently, or yield to a pull that's off center. They can have a little momentum of their own.
Deliberate adjustments to make myself more comfortable – shifting my stand, scratching an itch, stretching, etc – are also fair game.
One essential thing is to notice as soon as I find myself even slightly off-balance, and yield to it – giving in at the edge of standing balance, or losing balance and faltering while moving. Instead of resisting, it's an opportunity to go with the imbalance, not fight it. I strive to continue to tune in, notice further changes as they happen, including more faltering (and yielding) among everything else.
This yielding to faltering seems important. In so far as I can do it, it involves a kind of letting go of expectation about how I should be moving and accepting how I am moving. It involves striving to not fight myself unnecessarily. And it seems like the more I practice it, the more easily I get to the point where faltering doesn't tend to happen. As a bonus, when I'm tired or otherwise depleted, and thus more prone to faltering, I have plenty of material to explore. It's all the more gratifying when the faltering once again fades away as I yield to it, and I wind up feel more in tune with myself and my moving even when tired.
Whatever happens, it's useful to continue let go of movements when they abate, allowing whatever else is happening to happen. Including nothing at all. To not get carried away with doing something I find myself doing, but rather to notice when another change happens, including stillness, and to allow it. This is a fundamental challenge. To be both active and receptive, to cultivate the activity without forcing or inhibiting it.
I find it most useful to recognize that there are many layers of nuance. The aim is not to notice everything, do anything perfectly, but to marshal my attention and gradually tune in more. Rather than doubting myself for getting carried away and losing track at any moment, I take it as being occupied with something that has inside it more subtle details, always available to be noticed. This way I am never completely off track, but always within reach of something that is more on track. (This antidote to perfectionism is analogous to yielding to physically faltering rather than fighting it.) And conversely, I'm never completely on track. Just exploring.
What I Get Out Of It
- First of all, it's engaging. I find it increasingly interesting as I do it, and find myself continuing to discover new nuances in my moving, enjoying what I am doing and discovering.
- I find the kind of attunement that I appreciate in practicing contact improv with others. This includes a sense of alertness, immediacy, and ease that all combines together to a feeling of vital presence that seems both physical and mental.
- While it's not the same as doing contact improv with a partner, it feels like something worthwhile and rewarding in its own right. I still dearly miss shared presence and engaging immersion that come with partner dancing, but I don't feel like I'm losing the self that I find in dancing, while dancing with others is not available.
- When I was practicing this as part of my warm-up and solo moving at jams I have found it to be particularly good preparation for connecting with others. When I engage with others after having some time to practice this I usually feel more in tune with myself and more ready to find what's possible in the collaboration.
- I feel that this approach includes within it a notion of not fighting oneself unnecessarily. Like yielding to faltering rather than fighting it, it accepts whatever is happening as material with which to engage, an opportunity to participate in what's happening more fully.
- This solo practice is a way to enjoy being active in my body, an avenue to do solo physical improvisation in a way that I enjoy, and that is different from repetitive solo routines. It seems like modern times increasingly involves many ways to occupy our attention with minimal physical activity, or else with relatively repetitive exercises. In contrast, this is a way to explore physical improvisation that I find engaging, and that takes inspiration from the moment rather than routine or distraction.
- 2020-06-19 Including emphasis on following momentum, revealed through further exploration.
- 2020-06-12 Release.
- 2020-06-11 Polishing.
- 2020-06-10 Distilling. With yesterday's and today's changes the essay is much more ready.
- 2020-06-09 Second draft: describe the practice with some distinct steps.
- 2020-06-08 First draft.]